I have come to learn that I shouldn't be putting others infront of me when it has the chances of making me unhappy. However this habit of thinking for others and putting myself in the shoe of others remain. But if you ever ever get reminded of the past and if it makes you unhappy just thinking about it, leave it all behind. There isn't a point crying over spilt milk. I no longer cry because of my past because all I want is to be happy. And if you don't see happiness with that someone, move on. Denying isnt going to lead you to happiness. It just builds up and takes every single part of your dignity away. Now where's your stand? I've always had a stand for things and will never fail to voice out or to make my point. However, I still failed. My greatest regret, is having to leave it all behind.

I'll update a little more when im home. But if you follow me on instagram you would know :) @strawberrykon

5th

It's our 5th anniversary this 2013 and we (okay I) decide to have lunch at House, dempsey! :) 

 

Ordered their recommended pearly barley salad with quinoas on it. First time trying quinoas and I loved it! It was crunchy, supposedly nutty. Not sure how to describe them but it was really good, and filling! 

Choice the American sliders instead of Asian sliders because I wanted their fries. So much regret now because you can get the American sliders from skinny pizza. I think its opened by the same owner? Anyway great truffle and sweet potato fries! Gives me an excuse to head down another time for the other dishes. I cannot exclaim how much I enjoyed the food, ambiance and service!

Yup so happy anniversary to us! :) 

Made this meal the next day because we haven't had homecooked food for awhile. I'd rather have a meal at home than a fancy restaurant, unless a special occasion.

B and I didn't actually meet on the actual day because we were busy with work. Sad reality of adults :( Wish we stayed under the same roof but i'm contented with what I have now :) 

xx

Fulfillment list:
1. Taiwan trip
2. Stay healthy
3. Get a (full time) job

Eat clean

So I went on a eat clean week, well not totally clean because I did cheat many times. But it felt good to be eating food that nourished your body in the right way :)

Edamame salad and fish wrap is my fav! Its super yummy I could have it every single day hehe

I swear this is the break up season and Im scared. I can never forget what happened before. The more I try to ignore and forget, the more painful it gets. Who am I kidding? I love this boy of mine more than anything. But each time it just gets disappointing and hard. I get disapproved for everything. Every single thing and Im not even kidding. Its painful. On someone I pin my every hope on, it isnt what I expect. But I come to realize, nobody ever gives you what you want. You mean well, but this is not what I want. Im tired of hearing youre so stupid youre so proud youre fucked up dumb. I never once said I was the best. I never once said I was too good enough. But the things you say about me? Im speechless.

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I know everyone wants the best for me. But they don't know me at all. All I ask is encouragement, support for any decision of mine. But I don't receive it from you. I thank God for a mother who is supportive, agreeable to my every decisions. I am not the best daughter, the best girlfriend or the best child of God but I am thankful for everything I'm given. 

Everyone wants to hear: 'Good job!' 'This is damn nice!' 'Thank you.' but it's so darn hard to be appreciated by everyone. Yknow what makes me happy? When others are happy for what I have done for them. No matter how much I hate or am displeased with what others have done and swore to not do anything for them, I fail to do so. People mean so much to me. 

I hope I mean as much to them.

xx