I swear this is the break up season and Im scared. I can never forget what happened before. The more I try to ignore and forget, the more painful it gets. Who am I kidding? I love this boy of mine more than anything. But each time it just gets disappointing and hard. I get disapproved for everything. Every single thing and Im not even kidding. Its painful. On someone I pin my every hope on, it isnt what I expect. But I come to realize, nobody ever gives you what you want. You mean well, but this is not what I want. Im tired of hearing youre so stupid youre so proud youre fucked up dumb. I never once said I was the best. I never once said I was too good enough. But the things you say about me? Im speechless.