Life

Will you still love me tomorrow?

You need to be stronger than this. 

Please filter those horrible thoughts in my head now :'( I don't wanna face it all over again. I don't want to be placed in this very horrible position where I can nothing but sleep and cry and wait for the cycle to repeat. I wish I knew how I could change things and look forward to something better and new. I just need to talk to someone who truly cares.

Something good can work

At the time of my life where I start realizing nothing is enough to satisfy a human soul. When we comment on how selfish others maybe, we're actually being selfish too. Selfish, for not considering for others. The fact is, what's the point in being nice to people? Truth? Nobody cares. Really, nobody. Being selfish is probably just a way of protection one's self. We're humans, that's how we behave. 

It's so hard to settle down and satisfy yourself with just one think. How fuck up this society is, is just killing me. I don't want to live my life, worrying about the different problems I may face. I just want to be, happy. I mean who doesn't right? I'm probably ranting nonsense here that nobody would read, but yeah at least i'm getting this off my chest. K bye.

My sunshine

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It worries me when I try to imagine how my future would be like (if) ...
How easily you can change my mood in just a split second. The things you say when I try to make things better just disappoints me drastically. I don't want things around me to be what I don't want it to be. I'm tired of trying to make things better, explaining my point. It's tiring, or maybe I gave up. Things will never be great when you don't have another hand to clap with.
My point: why make things so hard for us when it's really so plain simple?

I'm hungry for success. Starving. The fear of not doing well, eats into me. But i'm tired, though i'm trying. Help? Nobody is going to help. Everyone adds nonsensical unnecessary comments that I do not wish to intake into me. I could kill if it wasn't a crime. (But it doesn't make sense). Okay maybe I should stop complaining and get my mind back to class. But then again, i dislike my facilitator. But but but but but but okay bye.

Part 2

Cupcakes after frosting them this morning. Looking good? Tasting great too!(: Glad the girls and Adam liked it. He brought back the almost entire box of 10 or more cupcakes! Bad sun burnt, as usual. Bad for my brains, always giving me a headache. I miss my bb, haven't seen him 5 days :( School + work + training is really taking away a lot of time I hardly have any for him. Sorry baby, i love you. Glad I'm meeting bb tmr(: 

Blueberry marshmallow chocolate cupcakes

Just took these fresh babies out of the oven. Looking and tasting really good! As a team baker (hahaha), these are for the team tomorrow in celebration of Adam's birthday. Can't buy him anything else but goodies to eat. Such a greedy coach. We burn calories while he stands at the side of the field eating. Tsk.  Can't wait for Hong Kong trip with the girls. Really counting down and excited for it! Gonna get new clothes and shoes just for the trip hehe. 

Tmr's plan: WTL match -> meet my boy -> shopping -> chunkfest? -> Home (: 

Dream

My dream house would be a comfy place, with a typical red-brick roof and lilac windows and a blue door. Doesn't have to be big with facilities. Just maybe, enough for 3, or 4. (Me you a dog and a cat) I'd have a lil' garden of mine where I can grow my own herbs fruits and vegetables, pick them when ever I need them. That would be lovely(: If I could, i'd like to have a little farm, with chickens lambs and cows where I can get real organic protein from fresh eggs and milk. I wanna live in the middle of the fields in a rural area where nobody else is around, just us. 

<3

Hi, I can only post pictures from my webcam cos i'm too lazy to connect my iphone to my laptop for more picturessss. Birthday week went really well, I've had good dinner and good company(: The best I could ever ask for. Went for atas dinner with the boy and had foie gras and SUPER GOOD asparagus risotto! Super touched by the birthday dedication that came with my dessert. Swear I nearly cried for joy. Love this boy^^

I wore my maxi for the first time when we went for dinner. It's super comfy I must say, hid all my fats which was a super good thing! I wouldn't mind investing in more maxi dresses haha.

My brother got me a h&m gift card too hehe! I have no idea how much is in it but i'm gonna wait for the next collection so i can get more clothes (yay)

Chilling with my burnt face with some milk tea naoz. Have no idea how i'm gonna sleep later and get up for church but i'm sure i would cause it's laser tag tmrrrr!<:

Oh yes, we had a good game against ravens again which I thought was a lot better compared to previous weeks! The score was 9-1, we finally scored a try! (we've been getting zeros for the past weeks) So happie, good job rainbow! Was happy with myself for diving at the try line, preventing them from scoring. It's another step of improvement (pats on back) 

^^ tata <3<3<3

On chilly days like this, I just want to cuddle with you in my sleep and never ever wake up. You were nothing I dreamt of, even better than anything. Dreams aren't real. You are(: Others may have a billion comments to bring you down but it never affects me because my heart never takes in irrelevant information I need not know. It's just gonna make us stronger, I pray. I can forgo everything you've did, just by covering it with what you've done for me.

Forever xx

To the ones that I love

Just need to thank everyone that made my day perfect. I can't exclaim how blessed I am to have friends like all of you. Though many times I get annoyed with the many things you do to annoy me, I'm glad I've got to know you(: So here's a big purple(My fav^^) heart for all of you to represent my love hehe. Love youuuuuuuuuu!