Please filter those horrible thoughts in my head now :'( I don't wanna face it all over again. I don't want to be placed in this very horrible position where I can nothing but sleep and cry and wait for the cycle to repeat. I wish I knew how I could change things and look forward to something better and new. I just need to talk to someone who truly cares.

Something good can work

At the time of my life where I start realizing nothing is enough to satisfy a human soul. When we comment on how selfish others maybe, we're actually being selfish too. Selfish, for not considering for others. The fact is, what's the point in being nice to people? Truth? Nobody cares. Really, nobody. Being selfish is probably just a way of protection one's self. We're humans, that's how we behave. 

It's so hard to settle down and satisfy yourself with just one think. How fuck up this society is, is just killing me. I don't want to live my life, worrying about the different problems I may face. I just want to be, happy. I mean who doesn't right? I'm probably ranting nonsense here that nobody would read, but yeah at least i'm getting this off my chest. K bye.

My sunshine

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It worries me when I try to imagine how my future would be like (if) ...
How easily you can change my mood in just a split second. The things you say when I try to make things better just disappoints me drastically. I don't want things around me to be what I don't want it to be. I'm tired of trying to make things better, explaining my point. It's tiring, or maybe I gave up. Things will never be great when you don't have another hand to clap with.
My point: why make things so hard for us when it's really so plain simple?

I'm hungry for success. Starving. The fear of not doing well, eats into me. But i'm tired, though i'm trying. Help? Nobody is going to help. Everyone adds nonsensical unnecessary comments that I do not wish to intake into me. I could kill if it wasn't a crime. (But it doesn't make sense). Okay maybe I should stop complaining and get my mind back to class. But then again, i dislike my facilitator. But but but but but but okay bye.