When there is nothing left to say
When the things you say didn't mean
When I just kept having my hopes up for no reason
When I think of things I didn't want anymore

I miss you. But I had enough. I can't live every single day of my life worrying something (predictable) might happen. Since I already know its coming, then whats the point right? That isnt what I want. What's a relationship when I have to prepare for the worst. But thats probably just the way I am.

I couldnt even have the one and only thing every relationship needs to have. Trust.

I fought. I fought for years. But what was I fighting for? I dont want to fight for love that I couldnt trust.

I have come to learn that I shouldn't be putting others infront of me when it has the chances of making me unhappy. However this habit of thinking for others and putting myself in the shoe of others remain. But if you ever ever get reminded of the past and if it makes you unhappy just thinking about it, leave it all behind. There isn't a point crying over spilt milk. I no longer cry because of my past because all I want is to be happy. And if you don't see happiness with that someone, move on. Denying isnt going to lead you to happiness. It just builds up and takes every single part of your dignity away. Now where's your stand? I've always had a stand for things and will never fail to voice out or to make my point. However, I still failed. My greatest regret, is having to leave it all behind.

I'll update a little more when im home. But if you follow me on instagram you would know :) @strawberrykon

5th

It's our 5th anniversary this 2013 and we (okay I) decide to have lunch at House, dempsey! :) 

 

Ordered their recommended pearly barley salad with quinoas on it. First time trying quinoas and I loved it! It was crunchy, supposedly nutty. Not sure how to describe them but it was really good, and filling! 

Choice the American sliders instead of Asian sliders because I wanted their fries. So much regret now because you can get the American sliders from skinny pizza. I think its opened by the same owner? Anyway great truffle and sweet potato fries! Gives me an excuse to head down another time for the other dishes. I cannot exclaim how much I enjoyed the food, ambiance and service!

Yup so happy anniversary to us! :) 

Made this meal the next day because we haven't had homecooked food for awhile. I'd rather have a meal at home than a fancy restaurant, unless a special occasion.

B and I didn't actually meet on the actual day because we were busy with work. Sad reality of adults :( Wish we stayed under the same roof but i'm contented with what I have now :) 

xx

Fulfillment list:
1. Taiwan trip
2. Stay healthy
3. Get a (full time) job