I thank you for making the person I am today. I thank you for being part of my life, the only person I can count on. So many times I hate you for ignoring me and losing your temper at me, but you make me whole again. I want so much for us. I sound like the most selfish person you could ever meet but I just want our own life. Sometimes I think about our (maybe) future and wonder how it'll be. And it doesn't seem to be like I'd like it to be. And I'm so afraid. I'm so selfish.