Exactly why I always end up pushing people away? Because I don't understand people at all. A minute they're here and the next they're gone. I don't want to end up the same. I'd rather be non existence to everyone even though it's * lonely. I don't know who are the best friends that would stay forever because people change and act differently. It's scary. I see it and I feel it, emotions? At the end of the day, who would stay behind and make the efforts in this thing called friendship?